Emotional stuff

It's kind of nice to be really busy. You don't have time to sit and FEEL. Just do-do-do and deny-deny-deny. It's a great route to happiness - I recommend it!

The drive to Georgia didn't afford me much distraction, though. It was just me and my thoughts. Which, aside from anything that involves planning or doing, tends to look like Emmett's mind from the LEGO movie. I loved that part :))

I kind of went through a grieving process. I expected that I would cry for hours and hours. I thought each emotion would all run full power and then on to the next emotion. But it was really choppy. I only cried three times. One of them when a cheesy Shania Twain love song played.  I felt stunned and shocked sometimes. What did we just do?

It was WEIIIIIIIRDDDDDD to see our house empty. God BLESSED us by speeding up our timeline by TWO DAYS. I swear I was ready to walk through each room and cry. I'm SO glad I couldn't do that. Well, I did kind of do that as I made sure I didn't forget anything. The rooms I felt saddest in? My laundry room. I spent so much time in there while the kids were playing in the playroom. The lights were off in the laundry room but when I turned them on, suddenly I wasn't sad anymore. It was so stark. It didn't feel like the same room. The playroom was NOT a sad place. I would have thought it would have been. But it was empty/CLEEEEEAN. So not the same place! Lauren's room was hard. I walked up there with Megan and GASP! Saw the crib. I forgot to give it to Joel to take to the dump. So after everything they'd already done, I had to have Joel and Megan COME BACK and get the crib. I'm so sorry! I hope it wasn't hard for you!

Even now, I think about our house and it seems so surreal. So foreign, almost like it was a dream. Did we really live there? Or I think about how weird it is that someone else is living in our house. But that's our house! Are you taking care of it? Do you like it? What parts are you complaining about? ARE YOU TAKING CARE OF THE FLOWERS??!! ;)) A gargantuan task, I know. I forgive them if they aren't.

I LOVE MY FRIENDS. Can I tell you how blessed I am? From the hands-on work of Megan and Leslie who came and helped me pack MULTIPLE times. Those extra hands saved me HOURS of work. I think I would have been a basketcase or a puddle of exhaustion on the ground. They also helped clean my house afterwards. ALSO hours of work. And I know several friends took care of their kids so that they could help me. It did not go unnoticed/unappreciated!!